We are into the two month mark since the province declared a state of emergency for COVID-19. The majority of places are closed except pharmacies and grocery stores. People are working from home (not me). Parking garage at work empty. Social distancing and isolation. Government opened up parks last weekend and this weekend we can “bubble” with another family if we are mutually exclusive. Never thought I’d hear those words together with family.
I have been going to work for the past two months so socializing there as we worked to get things in place for COVID-19 when it hit. The weather hasn’t been great which never helps even when not in a pandemic . We’ve had snow in May. Just saying.
In May I feel I have hit a wall. The past year I have managed to pull a weekly post together. Maybe not earth shattering but I have put it out there. Now I am struggling with what to do and say. How to express myself and find the energy to sit and write. I didn’t post last Monday and now it is Sunday and OMG I don’t have a post again!
I decided to write this post to put it out there that it is okay to be struggling right now. We are in unprecedented times. The majority of the world is on lock down. Our cases of COVID-19 are going down and things like parks are opening but social distancing and isolation are still a daily fact of life.
So deep breath. It is okay to be not okay. There is nothing wrong with us. Hitting a wall is just that. I’m still me and I will be okay. We have to be gentle with ourselves. Not put added pressure on to do more than we can right now. Look around and see what can we do. Curl up with a book. Sit in the sun. Be gentle with ourselves.
For me it was rolling into May. The start of another month of social isolation. Work is fine and I am Skyping friends. We have a four pm Saturday date. I have projects to do. It is just gathering the energy to start. So I’m working on being gentle with myself – not setting expectations I might not meet right now.
I am okay. We are okay. Deep breath. Be gentle. We are in this together.
You can always start now!